I didn't know why...

I didn't know why,this days i was very tired.Everyday i told myself,i should go to bed early,but when i went back to hostel from the library,i didn't want to sleep.I afraided to sleep,i afraided i would dream a bad dream.i afraided i would lose something.Almost most of things were not belong to me.

I didn't know why,this days i always lose my temper.Maybe something fired me,i really want to say something.Most of words,when i calmed down,i would regret.I was a person like this,sometimes i can gentle and soft like a sheep but sometimes i like a edgehog.Every word would hurt someone who was loving me.I didn't know what i should do.

I didn't know why i can put my feeling deeply in my heart.Was it because i was shy?Was it because i didn't know how to express my love?I always think that love was my own things,it was not related to others.I thought i confessed my love,undying devotion.

I didn't know what i should do that can make him feel me.I was still stand by him.I was not a girl who had so much to say.I wanted to keep slience.I was tired after all day class.I was not mean that i didn't want to turn him's back.He was my love.I can't tell anyone what i was thought,i only can write it in my heart.

I didn't know why i rigided in my view that he should go back to China during the holiday.I really miss him.I really want to him always with me.But i didn't want him to be a disobedient son.His parent must miss him.They must wish his son go back to home.What i shoud do?I didn't mean to let him aways.

I didn't know why i was feel unwell when he pay attention to me.Am i a Self-centered person.Is it everything he was listen to me?Is it we have something wrong?
I didn't know why...

Who can tell me...
I didn't know why..
Who can tell me what i should do...
Treasure

Birthday

Today was my birthday,although i had celebrated it in advance,i still recieved many blessing.It was the first time i celebrate my birthday abroad.My brother who studied in French asked me how i celebrate this special birthday.I told him i had celebrated advanced and i would have a big meal with my roommates.One of my rommates' birthday was on 6th,April.A little tired.A little sleepy.Tomorrow would have math test.Come on.

Wounds

It was a day like this,i did my Math Test and went to another class.The teacher was not coming soon,we wait her at the gate of the classroom.Classmates were chatting with others.I sended message to my boyfriend.We had something not happy yesterday.After this,i took part in my classmates.When i standed on the stage of the street,I falled down.My left body was all on the ground.I didn't know what i thought at that moment.My classmates helped me to stand.I saw wounds in my hands,in my feet and in my leg,but it was not painful.Came back to the class,i felt very painful,i didn't know what happened to me,i was always a person who had obtuse sense.

I was not happy all day long,maybe yesterday i was a little angry with my boyfriend.The class was over at 5 o'clock,i missed his call,i didn't take my phone to classroom.I opened my computer,I saw a message he gave me.I knowed yesterday i shouldn't say so many words.I shouldn't tell him how much i paid for this love.but in that time,i didn't know what i should to say,he still doubt my feelings for him.Before this,i didn't want he know what my mother told to me about my love.i didn't want he know how much i paid for this love.Because i thought i liked him,it was worth.I wanted to change my mother's view.In the world,there was still have ture love.

During this time,i didn't know how much tears i sheded.In my life,so many things that didn't explain.If i didn't know i would say i didn't know.Because i really didn't know.If i know,why i didn't tell to you?I want you to understand me.I thought i explain myself clearly,please didn't think more,please be simple.

Maybe i should be quite for a while.This was my love.I didn't hate anyone,i didn't give up.Just want have a rest..

How long i can be a child?

I was a child,
Can you give me a huge?
Don't laugh at me that i losed my temper and pouting sometimes.
I was a child,
Can you give me a kiss?
Wiped the boundary of friendship and love mightly.
I was a child.
Don't angry with me.
Toy give you,candy give you,i always love you
I was a child.
Can you give me a call?
Although i didn't care.
In my heart
I really want,
Grown-up,
It's nothing serious.
How can i do at age of 18?
How long i can be a child?
It was a song singed by Zheng Yike.I know i was not a child now.How i want to be a child.I want to escape. I want to run away from the world.What i should do?

You will always with me

After he did his test,we went to TC beach together.It was the first time i went to beach at night.I remembered when i was in Qing Dao,i went to beach everyday,i loved sea,l loved beach,l loved the sky in the morning.
When the taxi drove to the beach,the light on the beach atracted me.There were so many pelople on the beach,although it was 11 o'clock in the night.The TC beach is under the root of a mountain,there were a lot of resturant around the beach,KFC,McDonald,Tom yam Seafood and other shopping store.Along the street were a lot of small retailers,they selled souvenirs.There also have a small retailer who draw picture for visitors.Seen he drawing picture for a couple conscientious,seen the couple smiling happy,i was feeling happy too,because standing on my left hand was my boyfriend.We wore couple clothes."Don't touch,This is my boyfriend"was written on my T-shirt and "Don't touch,This is my girlfriend"was on his T-shirt.And there was an left-arrow on my T-shirt,right-arrow on his T-shirt.The T-shirt was bought by my boyfriend during the Chinese New year.We didn't celebrate Chinese new year together,but when he came back from Penang,he bought me a lot of things.It's the first time we wore this T-shirt.The most interesting thing was that we all match the T-shirt with blue jeans.
We planned to have dinner first,but i was not hungry.I ran quickly to the beach,i really want to see the sea.The sands on the beach was soft,the wind on the beach was cool and refreshing,the spray was white,the sky was dark but the moon was bright.The beach on the night had another appeal.So many people sitting on the beach was enjoying the beauty of the beach and sea in the night.
The mountain was silently sitting there.There was a tumber bridge before the mountain.It was the way to go to the other side of the beach.I heard that you can see the sunsite at the end of the beach.We went along the bridge.we arrived the other side of the beach.My boyfriend gave me birthday gift.It was a bottle full of the different color of the sand.It was a dolphin on the bottom of the bottle,An eyes on the back.A sentence which said "ying ying,i will always with you..30.03.2010"I known it was the words what my boyfriend want to tell me.He was always with me,he would never leave me.He want me to forget my fears.I really want to huge him at that moment,we huged ,we kissed.
I was 19 years old now.I was not a child now.I need to more independent,i need to learn more things.My 18 was over.There was so many things happened in my 18.First,I lost in college entrance examination in China,i need to study english and i need to grasp the opportunity to go abroad.Although my father didn't allowed me to go abroad and didn't give me money.But i was already in Malaysia.Secondly,i had time to think of my father and mother's promblem,Thirdly,i met my love.I will try my best to do better in my 19 years old.
We bought some food from KFC.we ate the food on the beach.Faced the sea,compained with a person who you loved,everything keeped quiet,only you and him.We want to see the sunrise on the sea.I have been see the sunrise on the mountain,but never see the sunrise on the sea.We sitted on the beach to wait the sun rise of the sea horizon.I was sleepy.I sitted in my boyfriend's arms,i did't feel cold,i did't fear,i sleeped in his arms.At 6 o'clock,the sky was becoming bright.we saw the yellow sunshine shoot out the clouds.We didn't see the sunrise because of the heavy clouds.But it was no regretful.You can stay with your love.
Day broke,we put off shoes and walked on the beach.We enjoyed the ocean waves crashing into the ankle.We took picture.we laugh.We went to the tumber bridge again.we want to see the mountain clearly on the daytime.we saw monkeys playing.we saw the crabs quickly moving to the sea.we saw each other from the eyes.
One night didn't sleep,but i didn't feel tired.we planned to go to Kuantan for shopping.At the monday,we should study hard.We seen an movie.3D.It was the first time i seen 3D movie and it was the first time i seen movie that didn't have subtitle.I need to concentrate my energy to listen what the actor said.I was a little excited.Because i actually understood the film's story.I thought i was great.
Then go shopping in the supermarket.we went back to the school.
This was the day i spent,i sill thought of one thing,i didn't know everything was real or not.Why i can meet such a great boyfriend?My boyfriend told me, it was luck.Yes,it was luck i study in Malaysia,it was luck i met my lovely classmates,it was lunck i met my boyfriend.Welkin,Come on in your 19.

Say Happy birthday to myself in advance

March,30th is my birthday,but it is not on weekends.So my boyfriend want to celebrate my birthday in advance.
He have been planning this birthday for a long time.He wants to give me a surprise.Yesterday he told me we would go to beach at 10:30 at night on friday,because he would have test between 8 o'clock and 10 o'clock.
I thought it was to late and i was a little fear of going out so late.My boyfiend was angry about this,he thought i was not trust him and i was afraid of staying with him alone.I was not meaning that. I known what he did for me.I trust on him.
Today we had lunch together.I fought he was not full of energy,he must not sleep well at night.He will have test in the night.I hope he can do a better job about his test.I don't want he is so tired.
I promised to go out with him to celebrate my birthday at night.I am looking forward this trip.Say happy birthday to myself,say thank you to my boyfriend.

Chinese man gets death for killing snoring student

It is a news about a university student who killed his roommates becuase of snoring.It was happened at Jinlin Agricultural University in November.The criminal was called Guo liwei and the victim was called Zhao Yan.Guo stabbed Zhao because he snored too much given a suspended death sentence,and he should pay 270,000 yuan ($40,000)to Zhao's family.

snore   /snɔr/ v.to breathe noisily through your mouth and nose while you are sleep
n.the noise you make when you snore
-Bill's snoring is a driving me nuts.
suspend v.1.to officially stop something from continuing especially for a short time
2.to make someone leave school,a job or an or an organizating temporarily.
3.to hang something from something else
-Dave was suspended from school for a week.
tension v.1.nervous feeling
2.no trust
3.different influences
4.tightness
5.force
-This wire will take 50 pounds tension.
stab v.1.to push a knife into someone or something.
2.to make quick pushing movements with your finger or something pointed.
n.an act of stabbing or trying to stab someone.
-Smith was found stabbed to death in a burning car.
confess v.1.to admit that you have done something wrong or illegal
2.to admit something that you feel embarrassed about
-She confessed that she killed her husband.
gap n.1 space
2.difference
3.something missing
4.in a mountain
5.in time
-There are huge gaps in my knowledge of history.

I am not a good girl

I am a bad girl.
I always don't know what i think.
I always say something that don't need to say.
I always make you angry.
I always make you don't to know what you should say.
I always let you think more.
I always not a good girl.

I am self-willed.
I am autocratic .
I don't care what you think.
I only care about my own feelings

I am not kind,i am not clever.
I am not beautiful,i am not confidence.
I always not trust anyone.
I always fear anything.
I don't know why i am such a person.
I don't know why i start to take care of what a person i am.

I want to cry,but i only cry in my heart.
It's my fault.
I am not a good girl.

Busy Day

This period of time,i will very busy.Next week is our test week for math.Today,teacher gave us a lot of exercise and each of us got one exercise to present on Friday.I think i shuld do the all exercise first.For English,we also have homework,such as reading exercise and make a Powerpoint.
I remembered one things happened today.Our teacher asked us do a Powerpoint about one Malayisa food and one Chinese food,and we should present in the class.We did it yesterday evening.It's the first time for me to make it.Our group,three girls all didn't know how to make it.I tried my best to make it.Today,we presented on the class.It was a little failure.First,we didn't do it nice,it can't see clearly.Second,it was my term to present,i didn't use proper conjunction.Athough it was not a good job,i thought we did it,it was the first time.I think we will do better next time.
I came back from a meeting for International student.I can't understand all the speaker say.I only understood a little.I think i need to improve my English.Our school is great.It take more attention on our International student,i am very glad that i can study in this University.
It was time for me to go to library.How busy day!

Forward

I love you,
don't have any purpose.
only because i love you.
--《安妮宝贝》
The life is not slow and fast,
Does not seem to fluctuate too much
The life is like this,
I still go to class,eat and listen to the music.
and think of my futrue.
think the things that can't get,
think the beautiful life and my dream
It looks like car through in my mind.

Everyone say,don't think,you should do it.
I know,i should do it,then it will come true.
I know whatever i said,i should pay attention to it.

I think my life is great now.
I study hard,i have my boyfriend.
I need to satisfied this life.
If it is mine,i will try my best to get it.
If it not,i don't want to do with much ado .

Sometimes i think
The life is like a movie.
When the things is happened,it will be the end.
I want to have more happy things in my movie.
I don't want to live in the sadness
I am looking forward to my dream life.
Looking forward to..
Everyday.

Different

After the big rain,i find something different between China and Malaysia.
First of all,i find there are so many insects,such as bees.I remembered when i go to buy dinner,the groud of the cafe fulled of bees.Second,today i found an ant,i never see such a big ant,it was red in back.it looked like a toy ant.Every insect in Malaysia was bigger than that in China.I found a snail,it looked like trumpet shell,but in China,it looked different.Thirdly,today was so hot.
I am afraid of insects,what i should do?

A bear lost

Finding:

He is 13cm in height.

Gray.

Wear a blue sweather

White scarf.

He was lost in supermarket.

A bear lost.

Do you see him?

I like him very much.I think he can companied with me when i am traveling alone,When i am eating,and when i can't sleep at night.But the food in the supermarket is delicious,i forgot he is always waiting for me.A bear is lost in the supermarket,do you see him?

Is he go traveling?Is the supermarket has a special gate?The salesman told to me,he can't see anyone let a bear go out the supermarket.Is he go by himself?Is he go to find me or he has a new friend?Meet a person is fate,isn't it?Why it is so short?
His smell still on my hands,The temperature of his huge is still warming me.A bear is lost in the supermarket,do you see him?

He is my bear,he is in my heart,If you see my bear,please give it back?

Rain

The voice of the rain waked me up,i planned to go to Kuantan today.It was raining heavily outside.I didn't think it is good for going to Kuantan.Because my umbrella is so small,it can only one person take,everytime when the sun is big,my boyfriend always catch the sun.
After i went to dormitory,my boyfriend called me.He told me that i didn't need to take umbrella,he would take.It was the first time i take umbrella with him.The umberlla was big,I accompanied his crook of the arm,i felt very warm.I saw the rain was on his arm,i known it was all because of me.Walking on the street,How I hope that we can go all the way, how much i hope the rain will not stop.
Each time,we go to kuantan,do the same things.Today,we went to eat breakfast-KFC.Then i did some money change and saved the money.We went to see a movie.I want to see English movie,but it didn't have.We choosed a Chinese movie.Seeing our country's movie,i really miss my hometown.
Of course we went to supermarket to buy food,but this time,i can't use the card that from China.It has a very interesting things.Am i look like Malay?When i talk to each other,the don't speak english.But i don't understand Malay.Maybe I have adapted to life here.
All day i were very happy.

A full life

This is life i want.The whole week is busy and full.We don't have Math class this week,so we don't need to get up eary.It is a new Level for us to study English.I think i am hardworking.After class,i go to library with my boyfriend.He is a good teacher for me.When i study tired,we go to do some sports.This week,we learn more about food and work.Every time when the teacher talk food,i will feel hurgry.

I like this life.When i study,i can forget all unhappy things,i don't want to think of this.I know i am supposed to get out of it,but what i should do?.

Everyday,i still chat with my mother online.She is OK,my family is OK.My brother has been gotten the visa from spain.Everything is great.

I am great,too.I think.

If you are not happy

If you are not happy,
If you are always not happy.
Whether you should find something that can help you forget the unhappy things.

How can i tell you,
my unhappy things?
Tell to myself,
Can i forget the unhappy things?

Maybe i always a child like this,
don't know how to feign myself
don't know how to express myself.
don't know what is right or what is wrong.
don't know when to go or when to stop.

I want a big huge from you very much.
Then you can finicky tell me
Our happy days is around the corner.

I really want this day is coming quickly.
I am the only one you love.
After this,
the whole world is missing.
you are my paradise.
I will never be hurt.

You see how i am looking forward to.
how i am looking forward,
I can't tell to you.
I can't tell to myself.
Who can i tell?

The same things but different people

Flowers look the same year after year
while persons different year by year.
I forgot when i saw this world but i remembered it clearly.
Indeed,
The year is not better than the formal years,
This year,
Are you changed?.
From the inside to the substance.
I am still what i am.
How about you?.

Every year when i recall my life,i feel time is spending fast.
the last year's winter,
it was cold but still had a little warm.
the last year's winter,
we stayed with each other,
the last year's Match,
Were we happy than this year?
We hoped this year would be a good year,
but is it acheive?

The dormitory is full of beautiful songs,
but it is for all i care.
When i walking on the street,
Under the sun,i saw different people with different smell,
i think i am very tired,
I afraid i have no strength to smell,
I told to myself,do not give myself stress,
But when this time,
I want to tell someone i am not happy.
When can i escape from the life?

2010,
Please give me self-confidence.

FOODS,FOODS,FOODS...

1.If you eat vegetables and cheese together,it is very good for your teeth.But what kind of cheese do you need?
I like eat fruit with cheese,i use Chinese cheese.In China,it maybe has three type of cheese,Rubing.Rushan and Ngui.I don't like to use Rubing,it is branch of cheese,and i think it is difficult to mix with fruit or vegetables.Rushan is usually seen on the street food,it is delicious and has different flavours. Ngui is cow milk.when i eat vegetables and cheese,i will choose Rushan and add many kinds of vegetables,i think it will very great.

The information comes from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_cheeses#China
2.Is brown sugar better than white sugar? In what ways?
I don't find more information on this question.The different between brown sugar and white sugar,first,it is the color.second,The Brown sugar is natural and healthier for you as is brown flour.I think it is equal.

The information comes fromhttp://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20080206134803AAWu1L2
3.Do we need vitamin supplements?What are the function of vitamins A,B,C,D and E?
Of course we need.Vitamins are substances that your body needs to grow and develop normally. It is important for our body.
Vitamins A:Important for healthy bones, teeth, mucous membranes and skin. Aids vision, especially in the dark. Carotenoids, which are other forms of vitamin A are powerful antioxidants.
Vitamins B includes B1,B2,B3,B5,B6,B7,B9,B12....
B1:Protects the heart and the nervous system from the build-up of toxic substances and is needed to convert carbohydrates and fats into energy.
B2:Vital for growth, the production of red blood cells and releasing energy from food.
B3:Maintains a healthy skin and keeps the digestive system working well.
B5:It is needed for the metabolism and synthesis of all foods.
B6:Required for the formation of red blood cells and various neurotransmitters and helps to maintain nerve function, a healthy immune system and healthy antibodies.
Vitamins C:Vitamin C is required daily and is necessary for a number of functions in the body. It is required for the formation of collagen, which helps to maintain skin, teeth, gums, tendons and ligaments. Vitamin C aids to heal wounds quicker, strengthen the immune system and fight cancerous cells. It is required to form neurotransmitters such as dopamine in the brain and helps to reduce any damage to the body from toxic substances and chemicals.
vitamins D:Vitamin D is needed to absorb calcium and strengthen bones and teeth and can prevent the onset of osteoporosis. It is also known as the "sunshine" vitamin, as 15 minutes of exposure to the sunshine, three times a week will enable the body to manufacture all the vitamin D that it needs.
Vitamins E:Vitamin E is an important antioxidant that protects the cells and tissue from harmful substances and free radicals. As well as preventing cancer, it is also known to prevent cardiovascular and heart disease. Vitamin E is often added to skin creams, due to claims that it may delay the ageing process.
The information comes from:http://www.helpwithcooking.com/nutrition-information/vitamin-guide.html
4.Kids love to eat junk foods.Give examples of junk food.What are the effects if we eat too much junk food?
fast food, hamburgers, hotdogs, fries, cookies, pizza, cake, candy, Big Macs, chocolate, Burger King, McDonald's...are all junk food.Eat mor junk food is not good for our health.it contains most fat,sugars and other things,it may leads some disease.
Information from:http://www.dietpolicy.com/diets-articles/junk-food-facts.htm
5:Foods that we eat may contain many food additives,What are food additives?
Food additives is something makes the food has preserve flavour and great taste and
appearance.
Information from:http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Food_additive
6.What are processed foods? What are the danger of consuming too much of processed foods?
Food processing is the set of methods and techniques used to transform raw ingredients into food or to transform food into other forms for consumption by humans or animals either in the home or by the food processing industry.
Processed foods that may not be as healthy as fresh foods include:

* canned foods with lots of sodium
* white breads and pastas made with refined white flour, which are not as healthy as those made with whole grains
* packaged high-calorie snack foods, like chips and cheese snacks
* high-fat convenience foods, like cans of ravioli
* frozen fish sticks and frozen dinners
* packaged cakes and cookies
* boxed meal mixes
* sugary breakfast cereals
* processed meats
Information from:http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Food_processing
http://nutrition.about.com/od/askyournutritionist/f/processedfoods.htm

Home Girl

One person at home,Everything is quiet.

The busy life makes me no time to think.
The mechanical life makes people to recall nothing.
Stay at home,
Almost everytime,i am thinking of the past silently.
The memory rebacks to the past,
I love stay at home,i love recall my past life.

At the weekend stay at home alone,even i can stay at home for two or three days.
I look vaguely up the window with thinking nothing.
I feel everything is stillness,only me.
I think it is a happy thing.

I think i like stay at home because of the computer and the people in the Internet.
I like write my feeling in the computer.
I like the friend who come to see my words and give me him or her advice.
When i am not happy,i write my mind.
When i am very happy,i write my mind.

I think i am a home girl.
I love home,love the life in the home.

I am not alone.

I thought time was going fast,new books and a new start.I went thought all the book,it was a little difficult than Level 1,the teacher only told a few word about our Level one test.I known,it was a new start for me.In today's class,we also talk about food.What's your favorite food?How to cook it? I were very miss my mother's cook and miss the chinese food.When can i eat my hometown's food?
Came back from class,i saw my friends taken notes for me.He hoped me i can always happy,I want to hope him always too.It was second year for him to study grade three in Senir School.He must study hard so he can go to a good college.I hope he can pass the final exam.I miss my friends in china.
I am very glad that i have many classmates companed with me.I have three lovely roommates.I have my boyfriend.I am not alone.

Pack my book to go to class

One week hoilday was end.I know after one-week rest,i need to study hard for my english study.I packed my bag,there were books,pencils and my electronic dictionary.All things was complete.It only need me to concentrate on it.My boyfriend helped me to make a plan.I not only need to study,but also do some sports.I am very glad that he is always with me.
My roommate was not feeling very well with her eyes,she weared contact lenses yesterday,but when she got up today,her eyes were swollen.I were very anxious for her.
I chatted with my mother online.I told her my life this week.Everytime,i need to tell myself,i should study hard.

One Saturday

Today is saturday.I went to Kuantan with my boyfriend.We had a great fun.Took off the bus,we went to ate KFC.I first time ate rice in KFC.I remembered when i was in china,i only ordered burger in KFC.Seen my boyfriend eating,suddenly there was a happy feeling.Then we went to see a movie.The last time,the movie which i choosed was so boring.but this time,also i choosed what we see.The movie name is Alice in Wonderland.I read this story when i was young.Alice is full of strange mind.The movie is funny,I liked it very much.It reminds me of my childhood.I am a little girl who like fantasy,but what i dream was not real.Alice's dream is real.After seeing movie,it almost 4:20.We hurried went to supermarket go shopping.I need buy manythings,because the following week,i start my level 2 english class.I need to fully prepared,of course including food preparing.Finally,we took our school bus to go back to school.
Athough i were a little tired,i were happy.It was rest of the day,the day could be a great fun.Thanks you very much for my boyfriend companied with me.

Trouble Is A Friend

Lenka - Trouble Is A Friend
LRC by lzh ,from jiangxi pingxiang
Trouble will find you no mater where you go, oh oh.
No Matter if you're fast no matter if you're slow, oh oh.
The eye of the storm and the cry in the morn, oh oh.
Your fine for a while but then start to loose control.
He's there in the dark,
he's there in my heart,
he waits in the winds
he's gotta play a part.
Trouble is a friend,
yeah trouble is a friend of mine. oh oh!
Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh.
And no matter what I feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh.
He sees what I see and he knows what I know, oh oh.
So don't forget as you ease on down the road.
He's there in the dark,
he's there in my heart,
he waits in the winds
he's gotta play a part.
Trouble is a friend,
yeah trouble is a friend of mine. oh oh!
So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm.
I won't let him win, but im a sucker for his charm.
Trouble is a friend,
yeah trouble is a friend of mine. Oh oh!
Oh how I hate the way he makes me feel.
And how I try to make him leave; I try.
Oh Oh I try!
He's there in the dark,
he's there in my heart,
he waits in the winds
he's gotta play a part.
Trouble is a friend,
yeah trouble is a friend of mine. oh oh!
So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm.
I won't let him win, but im a sucker for his charm.
Trouble is a friend,
yeah trouble is a friend of mine. Oh oh!

My life is full of trouble,today i listened this song.i think i need to be this girl.The trouble is not a trouble,it is our friend.
Yes,it is right.trouble is everywhere.
It makes you strong..
It makes you confidence.
It makes you no longer afraid of anything.
It is our friend.

I know

Before i go to bed, i known my boyfriend was not happy. I guessed he was angry with me because of I promised my classmate to wash his clothes.I believed my boyfriend would understand me.But I were wrong.Today he asked me about this things.Why I didn't tell him and why I promised to wash that boy's clothes.I felt a little wronged.Because I had reason, I made his clothes wet, I thought i need to wash.

I know why my boyfriend angry.

This period of time,i still not feeling very well.He afraid me tired.

He don't want me to close to a person who are not a good person.

I know what he do is all good for me.

I know he love me so he don't want see me get hurt.

That i all know.

When i see him are not happy,i will feel so sorry.

If he asked me whether i like him a second time.

This time i won't tell him i dont know.

Now , i am very clear about my feelings for him.

I will tell him.yes, i like you.

"CEP"Class2---Cherating

Wednesday,we went to Cherating,a small village near the beach.I were sleeping in the bus.When i wake up,i were in a fresh village,it is not hot and can smell the wind and the sea.
Took off the bus,teacher showed us to go to this village.He told us we would see many traditional things in Malaysia and everyone should try traditional play.He leted us to a room,we had our breakfast,the food ranged from noodle to bread.it was delicious.
Then we went to see a monkey,the monkey is so cute.he climbed the coconut tree quickly and did funny actions.At the moment,a coconut dropped from the tree.The monkey was so happy.we all know,coconut has hard shell.and how we can pull the shell?the villagers showed us how they peel the coconut.Most student tried it themself.I thought it was difficult.

After this,villagers showed us a kind of traditional play--- a pie plate,it was so magic,it can always rotated.A Cuju flew away,it is like football which made by garland.Our classmates divieded into two groups,they weared different color headband,one is red,another is yellow.I thought we had fun.
Villagers showed us many other traditional things.such as how to make coconut milk and how to make kite.My friend made one and he draw something on it.He hoped us everyone's dream will come true,we can always fly.We saw the Congklak,and we colored the pictures.The teacher told us every thursday they will wear a traditional dress which is made by this picture.We also played a game which darts are thrown at a darboard.We tryed the porridge,which contains many vegetables and coconut milk.I thought it was spicy.
The most interesting things for me was to go to the beach.I like the beach.I like the sea and the sky.The water in this sea is clean,the sky is blue.the sand is soft.I dreamed one day,i can see the sunsite from the sea with my boyfriend.I thought it would be very wonderful.
We came back the vallege at 12 o'clock,had lunch and had a rest.we stayed in a frame house with national characteristics.
At 2 o'clock,we did some traditional activity.Because i were not feeling well,so i weren't taking part in them.Our friends divied into four groups.They had a match.The match had four itmes.The first one was walking and running on stilts.The second one was co-operation with the walk.The third one was walking and running with legs tied together.The last one was throwing eggs.Everyone were enjoying the game.So i did.I took photoes to others.
We were tired and thirsty.Vallegers gave each of them a coconut to drink.It was great,but the coconut was big and it was plenty to drink.we ate the coconut meat too.I thought the Vallegers were very heartwarming.We tried some other food then we ended up this trip.
Though this trip,we know many about Malaysia,Malaysia's food,drink,play and people.I was filling in love with this country.I was looking forward to next CEP class.

I think i am ok now.

Sleep until afternoon.
A little bit tired and a little bit sad.
There were so many things happened yesterday everning.
NO,it was happened at today's morning.
I were angry with my boyfriend because of what he told to me.
He asked me,if what i did is not what i thought to do.
He wanted to know if i do something at the face but do another thing at the back.
I thought i was very sad to hear that.
I did what i could to love him,to be myself.I thought i didn't do anything that sorry to him.
And my mother fought i were not go to sleep,her told to me.
My brother's things was not going well.my father didn't give my brother money to go abroad for study.
My mother and my brother,all of them were not happy.
I didn't know what i should do for them.
What i could do is to listen to my mother and cheer her up.
I always believe everything will be OK.
I am quite sure i am ok now.Nothing can bit me.
Dear my mother, my brother ,my boyfriend,i am fine,don't worry about me.
I can take care of myself well.

Give myself a smile

I tell to myself,smiling.

I don't know what i should write.
Everyday,i only write some tiny things,i maybe only want to improve my english.
Only something that what happened ,or what i feel today.
Why i write this,maybe i want to record my life in Malaysia.
The life is always like the river.
Go through,go through,everyday it seems like the same day.

Youth,we not use full of it.
And when we recall our life,we only know how value the youth is.
Recall our past,it has so many things that make our move.

Someone told us,you are not a child,don't aways cry.
Yes,i am not child.
I am not the used child,a child who love cry.
But i think,i am only not a child.i always a girl.
If i want to cry,i can cry.
If i want to laugh,i can laugh.
Why everyone needs hold their true feelings?
I remembered who told me,growing requirds to pay a price.
The origin of us is losting.

Growing needs nothing.
Only needs to reback yourself.

Thinking

One day,I can't do anything.Got up late and wrote something yesterday happened.Have a lunch with my boyfriend and told him my experinece yesterday.
At afternoon,we went to one stop to see the movie together.My mother and i were chatting online.I went to toliet.My boyfriend chatted with my mother.They talked a lot.About our life,our study in Malaysia.
At night,i had some different idea with my mother.She thought i don't have chance to exercise myself because of i always together with my boyfriend,but i told to her.Each time,my boyfriend asked me to communicate with others and he always told me many things to practise my english.i was very happy i have such a good boyfriend.And i can understand my mother.She is always my mom.I love them both.
There are so many things i should think..

Trip for our "CEP"class

The teacher told us we would go to Petrosains and Aquarium for our CEP class, i was very exciting so that i cant drop in sleep that night.i was looking forward to this trip.
Got up at 6 o'clock,we planned to assemble at 6:45.After waiting for our classmates and bus,we started our trip.Everyone was looked tired,we slept on the bus so that we could have a spirit to join this class.
After about 4 hours' drving,we came to KLCC again.KLCC a big shopping mall,Dazzling array of products, bringing together the world's major brands, really makes you a great joy.Next to the KLCC,it is Twin Tower,so great, so powerful.
Went upstairs to the highiest floor,we arrivaled at gate of Petriosains.It is a discovery centre.we sitted in a "oil drop" bus,brought us in the dark,we through the rainforest,mountain,sea of the Malaysia,then went to a new World--Discovery world.

Following the footprint,we through the theatre of PETROJAYA,EXPLORATION,SPARKZ,GEOTIME DIORAMA,SPEED,MOLECUE NANO WORLD,FLIGHT TO THE OIL PLATFORM and DINOSAURS.We saw many expriements,it tell us what to do and how i do it.we not only had fun,but also learned more about science and Malysia.
Leaving the Petriosains,we had our lunch in KLCC.it inclued all kinds of food.I tried my local food--Chinese food,i feel i am missing my mother's cook.i am missing my country,but i am very glad to study at Malayisa.

After lunch,we went to the second place about our CEP class.it is Aquarium.it near the KLCC,i heard it is the largest one in Malasia.it inclued various fish and insects,we were traveling a sea of fish.we saw the sharks,rudd and others we dont know before.Because Malaysia is hot country,it has many unique fish.it is so beautiful.and we saw the snakes ,spider, and butterfly.

i bought some gifts and took many photos.i wanted to record my trip.
Finally,we had a period of time for ourself.A friend of me and i ,we went to go window-shopping.KLCC is a shopping paradise.
At 6:45 in the afternoon,we had to go back to our school.Although we were very tired, we were very happy.Along the way,intially we were all quiet to sleep,but then we began to sing songs,Voice echoed throughout the bus.

Please...

I know that unsatisfactory courses so that you even angry.

I know that tired body, so that you can not support.

I know that in the hot sun, measured you, how hard it is.

I know, today you have no class,but u have to listen u partner to go measure.

I know,you want to stay with me a long time,but we always dont have proper time.

But,please..

If you are not happy,

please do not be angry with me.

If you are tired,

please listen to me words, sleep early and have a good rest.

please do not said to me you dont know what to say to me because of tired and unhappy.

If you are afraid of the hot weather,

please wear long cloth and drink more water,i cant always to send water to you.

If we dont have so much time togther,

please do not double my love for you.

Everyday,

I seems to have to explain my behavir.

I dont know what i have done wrong.

You said to me, you want have a talk with me.

But,why so much time, you dont want say to me.

You don't know,my hearts relly hurt.

I am not happy,too.

How i want to tell you that i was not happy.

How i would like to encourge you to overcoming the difficulty.

How i wish to let you happy.

I just want to say.

I am always on your side.

A "dentist"

In today's speaking class. we played role in different situation. our group is played a role about a man and a woman go to see a dentist. and another patient who don't want to waiting, he pretend to be a dentist to frighten other patients. I played this patient, i think it is full of fun.

I remember it clearly, when i was 3 years old I were very afraid to go to see a dentist. because my old tooth were not dropped, but the new one was grown. the dentist taken out my old tooth. it was painful. After i went back, my mouth was full of cotton with blood. i couldn't open my mouth, so i couldn't eat and drink. I hated the dentist.

But today, i perform as a dentist, Athough it is not the real one, it also remind me of my childhood.

A new start.

It is already March now.i am in Malayia two months. Everything in my life is stepping into the right track. Every day, i get up at 7 o'clock.then go to our class.In the noon, we only have one hour to have lunch and rest.It is different from China.In china, our lunch time is full,i can sleep before i go to afternoon class.So i am always feel tired all day.Our class is end at 5 o'clock .Then i go back to my dormitory.At night,i go walking with my friends, surf the Internet and chat with my parents online.Now,i am accustomed to this life.
Yesterday,we finished our Lever 1 test.I am not doing well.i think in the following day,i must study hard. i need to do more practice.i have confidence that i can do my best.
It is a new start to me.Welkin, you can do it.