I didn't know why...

I didn't know why,this days i was very tired.Everyday i told myself,i should go to bed early,but when i went back to hostel from the library,i didn't want to sleep.I afraided to sleep,i afraided i would dream a bad dream.i afraided i would lose something.Almost most of things were not belong to me.

I didn't know why,this days i always lose my temper.Maybe something fired me,i really want to say something.Most of words,when i calmed down,i would regret.I was a person like this,sometimes i can gentle and soft like a sheep but sometimes i like a edgehog.Every word would hurt someone who was loving me.I didn't know what i should do.

I didn't know why i can put my feeling deeply in my heart.Was it because i was shy?Was it because i didn't know how to express my love?I always think that love was my own things,it was not related to others.I thought i confessed my love,undying devotion.

I didn't know what i should do that can make him feel me.I was still stand by him.I was not a girl who had so much to say.I wanted to keep slience.I was tired after all day class.I was not mean that i didn't want to turn him's back.He was my love.I can't tell anyone what i was thought,i only can write it in my heart.

I didn't know why i rigided in my view that he should go back to China during the holiday.I really miss him.I really want to him always with me.But i didn't want him to be a disobedient son.His parent must miss him.They must wish his son go back to home.What i shoud do?I didn't mean to let him aways.

I didn't know why i was feel unwell when he pay attention to me.Am i a Self-centered person.Is it everything he was listen to me?Is it we have something wrong?
I didn't know why...

Who can tell me...
I didn't know why..
Who can tell me what i should do...
Treasure