I didn't know why...

I didn't know why,this days i was very tired.Everyday i told myself,i should go to bed early,but when i went back to hostel from the library,i didn't want to sleep.I afraided to sleep,i afraided i would dream a bad dream.i afraided i would lose something.Almost most of things were not belong to me.

I didn't know why,this days i always lose my temper.Maybe something fired me,i really want to say something.Most of words,when i calmed down,i would regret.I was a person like this,sometimes i can gentle and soft like a sheep but sometimes i like a edgehog.Every word would hurt someone who was loving me.I didn't know what i should do.

I didn't know why i can put my feeling deeply in my heart.Was it because i was shy?Was it because i didn't know how to express my love?I always think that love was my own things,it was not related to others.I thought i confessed my love,undying devotion.

I didn't know what i should do that can make him feel me.I was still stand by him.I was not a girl who had so much to say.I wanted to keep slience.I was tired after all day class.I was not mean that i didn't want to turn him's back.He was my love.I can't tell anyone what i was thought,i only can write it in my heart.

I didn't know why i rigided in my view that he should go back to China during the holiday.I really miss him.I really want to him always with me.But i didn't want him to be a disobedient son.His parent must miss him.They must wish his son go back to home.What i shoud do?I didn't mean to let him aways.

I didn't know why i was feel unwell when he pay attention to me.Am i a Self-centered person.Is it everything he was listen to me?Is it we have something wrong?
I didn't know why...

Who can tell me...
I didn't know why..
Who can tell me what i should do...
Treasure

Birthday

Today was my birthday,although i had celebrated it in advance,i still recieved many blessing.It was the first time i celebrate my birthday abroad.My brother who studied in French asked me how i celebrate this special birthday.I told him i had celebrated advanced and i would have a big meal with my roommates.One of my rommates' birthday was on 6th,April.A little tired.A little sleepy.Tomorrow would have math test.Come on.

Wounds

It was a day like this,i did my Math Test and went to another class.The teacher was not coming soon,we wait her at the gate of the classroom.Classmates were chatting with others.I sended message to my boyfriend.We had something not happy yesterday.After this,i took part in my classmates.When i standed on the stage of the street,I falled down.My left body was all on the ground.I didn't know what i thought at that moment.My classmates helped me to stand.I saw wounds in my hands,in my feet and in my leg,but it was not painful.Came back to the class,i felt very painful,i didn't know what happened to me,i was always a person who had obtuse sense.

I was not happy all day long,maybe yesterday i was a little angry with my boyfriend.The class was over at 5 o'clock,i missed his call,i didn't take my phone to classroom.I opened my computer,I saw a message he gave me.I knowed yesterday i shouldn't say so many words.I shouldn't tell him how much i paid for this love.but in that time,i didn't know what i should to say,he still doubt my feelings for him.Before this,i didn't want he know what my mother told to me about my love.i didn't want he know how much i paid for this love.Because i thought i liked him,it was worth.I wanted to change my mother's view.In the world,there was still have ture love.

During this time,i didn't know how much tears i sheded.In my life,so many things that didn't explain.If i didn't know i would say i didn't know.Because i really didn't know.If i know,why i didn't tell to you?I want you to understand me.I thought i explain myself clearly,please didn't think more,please be simple.

Maybe i should be quite for a while.This was my love.I didn't hate anyone,i didn't give up.Just want have a rest..

How long i can be a child?

I was a child,
Can you give me a huge?
Don't laugh at me that i losed my temper and pouting sometimes.
I was a child,
Can you give me a kiss?
Wiped the boundary of friendship and love mightly.
I was a child.
Don't angry with me.
Toy give you,candy give you,i always love you
I was a child.
Can you give me a call?
Although i didn't care.
In my heart
I really want,
Grown-up,
It's nothing serious.
How can i do at age of 18?
How long i can be a child?
It was a song singed by Zheng Yike.I know i was not a child now.How i want to be a child.I want to escape. I want to run away from the world.What i should do?

You will always with me

After he did his test,we went to TC beach together.It was the first time i went to beach at night.I remembered when i was in Qing Dao,i went to beach everyday,i loved sea,l loved beach,l loved the sky in the morning.
When the taxi drove to the beach,the light on the beach atracted me.There were so many pelople on the beach,although it was 11 o'clock in the night.The TC beach is under the root of a mountain,there were a lot of resturant around the beach,KFC,McDonald,Tom yam Seafood and other shopping store.Along the street were a lot of small retailers,they selled souvenirs.There also have a small retailer who draw picture for visitors.Seen he drawing picture for a couple conscientious,seen the couple smiling happy,i was feeling happy too,because standing on my left hand was my boyfriend.We wore couple clothes."Don't touch,This is my boyfriend"was written on my T-shirt and "Don't touch,This is my girlfriend"was on his T-shirt.And there was an left-arrow on my T-shirt,right-arrow on his T-shirt.The T-shirt was bought by my boyfriend during the Chinese New year.We didn't celebrate Chinese new year together,but when he came back from Penang,he bought me a lot of things.It's the first time we wore this T-shirt.The most interesting thing was that we all match the T-shirt with blue jeans.
We planned to have dinner first,but i was not hungry.I ran quickly to the beach,i really want to see the sea.The sands on the beach was soft,the wind on the beach was cool and refreshing,the spray was white,the sky was dark but the moon was bright.The beach on the night had another appeal.So many people sitting on the beach was enjoying the beauty of the beach and sea in the night.
The mountain was silently sitting there.There was a tumber bridge before the mountain.It was the way to go to the other side of the beach.I heard that you can see the sunsite at the end of the beach.We went along the bridge.we arrived the other side of the beach.My boyfriend gave me birthday gift.It was a bottle full of the different color of the sand.It was a dolphin on the bottom of the bottle,An eyes on the back.A sentence which said "ying ying,i will always with you..30.03.2010"I known it was the words what my boyfriend want to tell me.He was always with me,he would never leave me.He want me to forget my fears.I really want to huge him at that moment,we huged ,we kissed.
I was 19 years old now.I was not a child now.I need to more independent,i need to learn more things.My 18 was over.There was so many things happened in my 18.First,I lost in college entrance examination in China,i need to study english and i need to grasp the opportunity to go abroad.Although my father didn't allowed me to go abroad and didn't give me money.But i was already in Malaysia.Secondly,i had time to think of my father and mother's promblem,Thirdly,i met my love.I will try my best to do better in my 19 years old.
We bought some food from KFC.we ate the food on the beach.Faced the sea,compained with a person who you loved,everything keeped quiet,only you and him.We want to see the sunrise on the sea.I have been see the sunrise on the mountain,but never see the sunrise on the sea.We sitted on the beach to wait the sun rise of the sea horizon.I was sleepy.I sitted in my boyfriend's arms,i did't feel cold,i did't fear,i sleeped in his arms.At 6 o'clock,the sky was becoming bright.we saw the yellow sunshine shoot out the clouds.We didn't see the sunrise because of the heavy clouds.But it was no regretful.You can stay with your love.
Day broke,we put off shoes and walked on the beach.We enjoyed the ocean waves crashing into the ankle.We took picture.we laugh.We went to the tumber bridge again.we want to see the mountain clearly on the daytime.we saw monkeys playing.we saw the crabs quickly moving to the sea.we saw each other from the eyes.
One night didn't sleep,but i didn't feel tired.we planned to go to Kuantan for shopping.At the monday,we should study hard.We seen an movie.3D.It was the first time i seen 3D movie and it was the first time i seen movie that didn't have subtitle.I need to concentrate my energy to listen what the actor said.I was a little excited.Because i actually understood the film's story.I thought i was great.
Then go shopping in the supermarket.we went back to the school.
This was the day i spent,i sill thought of one thing,i didn't know everything was real or not.Why i can meet such a great boyfriend?My boyfriend told me, it was luck.Yes,it was luck i study in Malaysia,it was luck i met my lovely classmates,it was lunck i met my boyfriend.Welkin,Come on in your 19.

Say Happy birthday to myself in advance

March,30th is my birthday,but it is not on weekends.So my boyfriend want to celebrate my birthday in advance.
He have been planning this birthday for a long time.He wants to give me a surprise.Yesterday he told me we would go to beach at 10:30 at night on friday,because he would have test between 8 o'clock and 10 o'clock.
I thought it was to late and i was a little fear of going out so late.My boyfiend was angry about this,he thought i was not trust him and i was afraid of staying with him alone.I was not meaning that. I known what he did for me.I trust on him.
Today we had lunch together.I fought he was not full of energy,he must not sleep well at night.He will have test in the night.I hope he can do a better job about his test.I don't want he is so tired.
I promised to go out with him to celebrate my birthday at night.I am looking forward this trip.Say happy birthday to myself,say thank you to my boyfriend.

Chinese man gets death for killing snoring student

It is a news about a university student who killed his roommates becuase of snoring.It was happened at Jinlin Agricultural University in November.The criminal was called Guo liwei and the victim was called Zhao Yan.Guo stabbed Zhao because he snored too much given a suspended death sentence,and he should pay 270,000 yuan ($40,000)to Zhao's family.

snore   /snɔr/ v.to breathe noisily through your mouth and nose while you are sleep
n.the noise you make when you snore
-Bill's snoring is a driving me nuts.
suspend v.1.to officially stop something from continuing especially for a short time
2.to make someone leave school,a job or an or an organizating temporarily.
3.to hang something from something else
-Dave was suspended from school for a week.
tension v.1.nervous feeling
2.no trust
3.different influences
4.tightness
5.force
-This wire will take 50 pounds tension.
stab v.1.to push a knife into someone or something.
2.to make quick pushing movements with your finger or something pointed.
n.an act of stabbing or trying to stab someone.
-Smith was found stabbed to death in a burning car.
confess v.1.to admit that you have done something wrong or illegal
2.to admit something that you feel embarrassed about
-She confessed that she killed her husband.
gap n.1 space
2.difference
3.something missing
4.in a mountain
5.in time
-There are huge gaps in my knowledge of history.